Thursday, October 13, 2011

I Just Feel Like Writing...

...so that's exactly what I am going to do.


I found this quote tonight and thought it described me to an E (you know E for Elisha...lol, never mind...lame joke).


Write down the thoughts of the moment.  Those that come unsought for are commonly the most valuable.  
~Francis Bacon~
I have often thought that when I am writing that it is not actually me. I feel like I am another person, a better me or something. I am able to express myself better and more freely than when I am sitting in front of (or beside) someone trying to talk heart to heart. I more open, passionate, expressive, opinionated with a keyboard and/or pen and paper than I am with many of my friends out in the open. I even write my prayers out, that is just my way of talking to my best friend. Of course I pray by speaking, but my intense and passionate prayers are all written. 


David wrote his prayers and we are encouraged to pray scripture as well. One of my favorite Psalms is Psalm 73, because it talks about how we as Christians often mistake that the sinful  look as if they have no consequences, and yet we struggle for following Christ (or at least we should, if we aren't struggling we should probably make sure we are really saved). But in the end the Psalmist reveals that the end of the sinful is a slippery slope all the way to Hell, but that the life of a Christian though it may have struggles, our Heavenly Father holds our hand and guides us with His counsel and will one day guide us into Heaven and into His glorious Presence. What a wonderful way to capture the way of the world and the way of Christ.


Writing is such an awesome thing, I have no idea what I would do if I was not able to write...


The one thing I have always wanted to do with my writing is to write books, I would just love it if I could write books, I have always wanted to. But every time I started one I would end up in the middle and get writers block. My brother and sisters would sneak and read my stories and then ask when I was going to finish them. I always thought I had developed the characters pretty well, a good story line, and the beginning of the book and the end of  the book...but the middle always seemed to disappear once I had gotten to it. I am a writer that writes in the moment of passion, I cannot write when I am not feeling what I am writing about...and so, very soon the stories would be forgotten. Of course there were times I would find them and try to write them again, but the story wasn't in my heart any more.


In reading about other Christian writers such as C.S. Lewis, Isaac Watts, William Cowper, David & Solomon (of the Bible) and many others and seeing how they went through many trials, disappointments, fears, depressions, etc.  and to see how they can write their feelings down with such passion so that not only the people who have known such trials, disappointments, fears and depressions, etc. but the people who have not known them can feel that they know what they are talking about. I am by no means comparing myself to them, but I do understand the way that they write and how they can express themselves and how God uses them to show us His glory through their writings.


God can use whomever he chooses and however He chooses, I have given him my heart and my pen and hope to use them to His glory. I highly doubt that I will ever have anything published or be thought of as a good writer, but I do know that by me being able to write I find that I am able to understand myself and my LORD (especially when I let Him write through me) a lot better.


I know this is just a bunch of ramblings about me writing, but this is what was on my heart tonight and I just felt I had to write it out ;) 


How do express your heart? How do you think God uses you to His Glory?