Not Leaning on My Own Understanding

"Trust in the LORD with all of your heart, and lean not upon thine own understanding; in ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths."

~ Psalm 3:5-6 ~

   Lately life just really hasn't gone exactly as I planned it. At the beginning of this year I resolved that this year was going to be different from any other, I was going to do things that I wouldn't be able to do as a married woman, this would be the year I enjoyed my singleness and was content with it. I was going to learn lots of new things, I was going to work on getting my body into shape, and I was going to grow closer to God.

   Things started out just fine, I got my herb business up on the internet, I really studied hard to learn new things about herbs and planned my biggest herb garden yet, I lost several pounds and God was really working in my life, I felt so good about where I was at in my life, I finally felt like I was completely content.

That was when God began His work....

  God did something that I didn't really foresee in my life at the present time. All the things I had planned to do seemed to come to halt for this one thing, it wasn't purposeful at all it just happened. God really started working in me, at times I was so fearful of what was happening that it hurt but I knew it was for the best, and so, although I feared the unknown I did what He asked.

   God started working on my heart through another person. This person really made me look at me as a person, look at myself through another persons eyes and look deeper inside of me than I had ever dared look. I had to open my heart up and what I saw at times I didn't like, and other times I couldn't believe how God worked through me in certain areas. They made me write about things that I hadn't dared write before (although no one ever saw it, I still wrote it), and feelings about certain things that I didn't know were in my heart surfaced. At times I had to reopen old wounds, and it hurt so much. But, I think that it was a good thing...I think that there was still a little poison left in those wounds that needed to be drawn out.

  At times we had to talk of things that were uncomfortable for both of us, but it was necessary and in the end, God worked through both this person and myself in such an awesome way. All of this was by no means easy, but God lightened the load just as He says he will do. We had many good times as well as hard ones, and a friendship was formed.


  Through it all I have realized that first of all when I start planning my life I better watch out cause God is going to do something to turn my plans upside down (and for good reason). Secondly, God never brings people into our lives for no reason, it may be uncertain as to why they are there or how long they will be there, but God always has a reason for someone being in your life. I am so glad that this person was in my life for the short time that they were. Otherwise I wouldn't have learned certain things that God had for me to learn and do in my life. People don't realize what an impact they have on other people's lives. No matter how small the gesture or period of time you are in someones life, remember God placed you there for a reason so make sure you do what He tells you to do. Make the difference.

 God is so AWESOME.

 Pray over your future and look only to Him for your comfort and hope. Do not fear what comes your way because it is an unknown, trust God in all things and He will bring the desires of your heart to pass and realize that the closer you become to Christ the desires of your heart will become the desires of Christ for you, it will not be so focused on the things "below" but more on the things "above". God works in mysterious ways, His wonders to perform and I have seen this in my own life just over the past four months and I am so thankful for a God who is also my Abba Father, My closest confidante &  most of all My Best Friend!

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Oh and by the way I guess God did fulfill my resolve (just not the way I planned it) and I have learned so much more in areas I did not realize I needed "educating" in, it has been a year like no other. Plus,  I look forward to what He has planned for the next three months of the year! God is so GOOD!

Prince Charming VS A Real Man & Finding Romance in Christ

"Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing..." Proverbs 31:30a

Who Will You Choose?

I have been thinking on this post for a long while, but it seemed like every time I wanted to write it I would get interrupted. Since I have had a while to think on this I hope that it will be more than just a "rant" (which I sometimes do) or an educational post, I want this to come from the Holy Spirit, I believe He layed it on my heart to write and so here I am.

Prince Charming V.S A Real Man

To me prince charming is a man who looks good on the outside but on the inside is full of lust and deciet and will only do a woman harm, he will promise you everything including changing his ways, but inside he just wants to use you and throw you out with the garbage. Is this the kind of man  you have in mind to marry?

A real man is a man who sees the needs of others weaker than him and is able to compassionately fufill them or give it his best shot. He is kingly and gives his service as much as his orders. He is easily given to falling on his knees when he needs to talk to his LORD. He may fear many things but God is his comfort, shield and the giver of his strength and courage. He knows when to use his sword and when to put it away. He may not be able to give me the world, but he often talks with the Creator of the world and to me that is all that I need.

I would rather have the latter man than the first, wouldn't you?

Finding Romance in Christ

Many times throughout my life I have thought that one day this "perfect" man would come along and sweep me off my feet, we would never disagree, we would always be the "perfect couple". Now when I think back on those thoughts I want to slap myself silly. Really? I mean I was putting an awful lot of pressure on the man who is to one day be my husband. I hadn't planned on changing, so that meant he would be putting in all the effort while I took everything he gave.

I have since been given much more wisdom since then, although only a tiny bit compared to others. I have learned that in a marriage you have to give 100%, this sounds harsh to our human ears. But, did not our LORD do the same? He came and died for us giving up his life for ours, He gave 100%. Can we not do the same?

I think one thing that inspired me to write this post, are all the young girls out there who think the same way I did at such a young and impressionable age. I want them to realize that first of all we need to take our focus off of marriage. We girls tend to fantasize a lot and more often than not this can be as bad for us as pornography is for men. Constantly thinking about marriage can be detrimental.

For us as young ladies what we need to be doing is focusing on our relationship with Christ, serving our family and learning all we can from our parents. Only then can we truly be ready for marriage and from what I have seen and heard about courtships, is that it will come when your not looking for it. So quit looking for it.

I noticed a great change in my life when God asked me to give up the thought of courtship. Now don't get me wrong, I still believe that the LORD has a man for me, but I was always thinking about who or where he was or when it would all happen and I realized that instead of filling my head with scenerios about the future, I was able to be of a lot more use to my family, start my own business, and first and foremost be able to get closer to my LORD and Saviour Jesus Christ. When you give up the thing you "think" you want most in life, the LORD reveals the real treasure you had been looking for all along. God will bring your husband to you in His time, but be patient, don't wish time away, instead make it a useful learning period in your life.

I am not perfect, in fact I am far from it, Christ has brought me a long way in my journey. I am so glad that I don't have to fill my head with thoughts of a man or romance, for right now God is my only romance. I will gladly accept the right man, when He comes along...but know that I am not out "searching" for him. I am out among friends and family doing what God has asked of me. I do gladly and willingly await the day that I can have the wonderful name of "wife" to a Godly man. But, if that takes several more years I am ok with that and you should be too. Don't bo to quick to search for a Prince Charming, they are everywhere and easy to find, But waiting on a man of God to seek you out is the greatest treasure that can be found. I pray for all of you that you find your romance in Christ first and then you will be able to love your husband in a better manner than you ever could have before Christ.

Look to God and His Word and you will find real romance, you will learn how to really love your future husband by loving God first!